There are a lot of things that women conveniently omit when describing pregnancy and early parenthood. Sometimes i think it’s a bit of “if I have to suffer, so do you,” and other times I believe that those thing need to be omitted so that people don’t miss out on one of theist awesome experiences that life can offer. In reality, it’s probably a combination of both.
For instance, you’ll hear things like, “oh sure – you’ll have plenty of time to do that when you’re home with the baby!” Like blogging. What they fail to mention is that your “plenty of time” comes around 3am when you’re feeding the little cherub and plotting a million ways to injure the currently-sleeping father. So it’s less a lie and more an omission of the truth. Thankfully, I knew what I was getting into with Lennon, and I nurse her with smartphone in hand. I apologize now for all of the misspellings – one can only accomplish so much one-handed.
Even more important though is the fact that no one mentions exactly how long it takes for your body to snap back after a birth. I wasn’t out of maternity wear until Liam was 3 months old. Evidently, we are not part rubber band. With Lennon, I’m a month in and I’m getting impatient. All of my maternity clothes from this round are summer clothes, and I don’t want to buy maternity jeans for the winter. Instead, I hit the shops for some leggings. I’m hoping that i might get into leggings earlier than normal pants due to their stretchyness. There’s something to be said about the feeling you get that first day you’re out of maternity and back into normal clothes – despite lack of sleep, being covered in spit-up, and the nursing bra you’re wearing, those normal clothes make you feel human again.
I realize I’m only a month out this time, but I’m itching to feel decent about what I see in the mirror again. I don’t even mean due to weight loss, I just mean feeling good about the clothes I selected. Feeling good in your own skin is step one to getting healthy again. I just know that if I can feel confident in the mirror. I’ll be confident at the table, and I’ll make better decisions. I know I can do this, I just have to do it one step at a time.